The new Addition!!

Well, as of December 19, 2010, Maurice Antwan Eason Jr, or as I call him Reesie, was born! Yay!! He's turned out to be such a blessing!! He was 5lbs, 9oz, 19in long! Gosh, the labor was horrible, but it was so worth it.

They were going to induce my labor Sunday night, but I felt horrible sunday morning, so I went in early to labor and Delivery. It was insane, cause they decided to keep me since I'd only have to be back again, anyway, and so they began to prep me. As it turned out they didnt' have to induce, I began having my own contractions, and before I knew it I was fully ready to have the baby and he was here. I know I was horrible to people that were in the room, and wish I could apologize, but it hurt so bad until they finally decided to give me the medicine.

Now he's here, and he's such a doll. I am so inlove with him already. He sleeps alot, as I knew he would, and so sometimes I make him move so I know he's doing okay. He got circumcised today, and so we go to the doctor tomorrow.

Hubby is so happy to have a JR, it's so funny. The agreement was that I could nick name him anything I wanted as long as hubby got his JR, and so because when Reesie came out he sounded like a baby piglet, that's what I decided to nickname him lol.

Anyway, just wanted to share the good news.

Thanks to those who prayed!

A Good start to a Great Day

Yay!! The man was here today to give us the oil for the heat!! I am so very excited! I know it's adding on another bill, but it's so much better than having the pipes burst because it's so cold and then NEVER being able to pay for them to come and fix it. Plus the heater that we have doesn't do crap for the cold, so this will be so much better.

This morning around 5am I heard the mice in the attic and the walls, or maybe it was one or the other, but I am telling you, it sounded like they were trying to chew their way through. Maybe I've watched too many horror movies in my life, which I can't stand now, so it's just the ones I've watched in the past that mess with me, because in my head I could see huge killer rats with long sharp teeth and huge claws walking around up there. Sometimes, that's what it sounds like. I am not an animal killer, but now that we have a child and one on the way, I seriously don't want these rodents to come down and bite anyone. I'm not sure if mice bite or not, but I don't want to take that chance.

Well, I have a doctor's appointment today, and again, I'm going to ask them to induce my labor since I'm only like two weeks away from my due date now. I doubt they will budge but it's worth a try. I had to sleep on the couch again last night, but I slept good and it wasn't so hard for me to get up to go to the bathroom as the couch is higher than the bed. Even Raven slept through the night. Then this morning, she began to run through the house. Gosh, I didn't know she could be so hyper. Just running and laughing and squealing, and we couldn't do anything but laugh because she's so silly. She was even talking to Reese, and though we have no idea what she was saying except for a few words like "okay" we could tell that SHE understood what she was saying. Which why we laugh at her, and then because she knows that she made us laugh she tries to do something else to get the same reaction. She is so smart.

I have realized while creating posts for this blog, it's become a kind of diary I guess, because there's really nothing useful in them, just ranting and raving. Still, it's good to be able to write down SOMEWHERE  what I can't really talk about or fail to do on paper. Since I'm more of an electronic kind of person, it's way more fun to do it by computer or by phone. Plus, I like to keep people updated on what's going on with me and the things here :). Sorry if it's boring, we tend to lead a quiet and less active life.

I can't say the same for the neighbors across the street as they have been known to use fire crackers in the middle of the road, or bust into someone's house and beat them up for no reason, well not that I know of. It makes me so grateful that we don't really associate with alot of people and stay to ourselves. Still, I can't say that we aren't nosey, cause the first thing we do is stick our heads to the window to see what is going on. Guess that doesn't make it better :P.

Well, Just thought I'd post something today. I decided to post my writings here too, as I really had no where to put them, and since I was already posting I thought I'd put them where people could read them. I love to write, which is another reason why I love this blogging, and I hope that someone can enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them!

Mary had a little Lamb

Mary had a little lamb, His fleece was white as snow.

And every where that savior went

Mary was sure to go.

She followed Him to school one day

And as He went to play,

For she knew that He was born

To die for us one day.

They took Him and they beat Him,

Laughing as if it were a game.

They nailed Him to a cross,

They made fun of His name.

Mary could only watch

As her son hung on that tree,

She whispered, "Let thy will be done,"

So that He could die for me.

Mary had a little lamb,

He's now a mighty king.

Him dying on the cross for us

Is the reason why we sing.

For He loves us more than words can say,

He wishes that none should die,

But to live with Him in Paradise,

Beyong the big blue sky.

More Like You

Lord, no matter what happens,
No matter what passes my way,
Teach me to be content
With whatever happens today.

Lord, give me the peace
That no one can understand.
Give me the joy in knowing
That it's you that holds my hand.

For it's you who's in control
Of the things in my life.
Not remembering that causes
Alot of unneeded strife.

Take away my anger, Lord,
It brings no glory to your name.
It's foolish to keep going
Everything the same.

Fix me, Dear God
Mold me through and through.
I have a growing desire
To be more like you.

God and God alone

Talk to my spirit, Lord,
Touch my very soul.
Because it was you alone
Who came and made me whole.
I felt so dead and usless, Lord,
But you had use for me.
In the world I was blind,
It took you to make me see.

Once my eyes ere open, Lord,
And I was safe and free,
I could sing and praise your name
For what you've done for me.
Minister to my soul, my God,
So that I can work for you
To let other people know
That you can fix them too.

You saw something broken,
And made it clean and new.
When people wrote me off you said,
There's nothing too hard for you.
And so I praise your name, O Lord,
The King upon His throne.
For it was you who saved me,
It was God and God alone.

Only You

No one can love me
The way that you do.
No one can understand
What I've been through.

People look at me
And what I used to be.
You look at me
And see a soul set free.

Nothing can compare
To what God can do.
No one can truely love me,
Only you

I wonder

I wonder what it was like
To watch Jesus Pray.
To see her son
Build furniture all day.

I wonder if He saw a rainbow
And remembered the flood,
Or if Mary ever told Him
How He was to shed His blood.

Did He act as other children?
Did Jesus run and play?
Did He get taught creation?
Did He have to study all day?

And when Jesus taught,
How did it feel
To see God in action?
Did it seem real?

How did it feel
To watch her baby grow?
And people disresepcted Him
Just because they didn't know.

And when they beat Him
Mary held her breath,
Vowing to stand by Him,
Even to His death.

And they hung Him on the cross
For all the world to see.
But Mary humbled herself
So Christ could die for me.

My reflection

Does my face reflect
What's really in my heart?
Will it enhance my life
Or will it tear me apart?
If you think on it too long
It will become out of place.
A heart reflects a man
As a mirrior reflects a face.

Your face can tell secrets
You didn't want revealed.
The thoughts that you thought
Were hidden, buriedd, and sealed.

A face can reflect
What's really in your heart.
It can uplift someone
Or tear them apart.

So be careful what you allow
To fester deep within.
Something really small
Eventually turns to sin.

If it weren't for You

You look at me like I'm strange,
You look at me like I'm weird.
Do you really see me for a change?

I'm just like you,
YOu're just like me.
What's one difference
That you see?
Why don't you like me?
Why do you stare?
Why do you hate me?
Why don't you care?

We are different,
This is true.
Maybe we wouldn't be
If it weren't for you.

I am not Forsaken

My God, my God, why
Why have you forsaken me?
Are you really to leave me alone,
Just after you've set me free?
I feel as though the world
Were crashing down on my head,
And if it weren't for you
I'd already be dead.

You're the Alpha and Omega,
The bright and morning star.
I serve because I love you,
I know who you are.
You're the redeemer of my soul,
The very breath in me.
In the world I was blind,
You came that I might see.

You allowed your Son to die
On a cross made of a tree,
Just to save a simple man,
A filthy wrench like me.
So I know that you love me,
I don't doubt that for a minute.
No one can tell me otherwise,
There'd be no truth in it.

Yet, I can't help but feel
As though you're far away.
Even though I talk to you
Every single day.
I thank you for your love
For the grace that oyu show.
People don't see my heart,
You alone truely know.

I thought you were gone,
But I know I was mistaken.
You already told me
I am not forsaken.

Come into my life, O Lord

Come into my life, O Lord,
Make me completely new,
So I may go into the world
To do a work for you.

Make my life a testimony
For all the world to see
That you want to do for them
What you have done for me.

To take something once rejected
And make it something new,
That we may enter darkness
And become a light for you.

Come into my life, O Lord,
For I need you by my side.
Take away my anger,
My hurt, shame, and pride.

I will forever bless you,
As I will always pray.
I will give you thanks, O Lord,
You woke me up today.

Finally the end of a tiresome day

Well, today was cold, as usual. At first it wasn't really that bad. I had an appointment at PRMC today in labor and delivery. They had planned on doing a test on the baby. A biophysical test. As it turned out they strapped me to the monitor and listened to the heart beat and watched for movement. Moving isnt' the problem, it's the being uncomfortable part because apparently my bladder is a toy for the baby to jump on, is the problem. Anyway, as I looked outside I could tell that the wind had picked up. Finally, after being at the hospital for what seemed like forever we finally left and went to pay for the oil. Hopefully we will have heat soon and can stop using this electric heater, as it's not really doing much anyway. Just to use the bathroom, it feels like it's below zero in there.

My sister came to watch the baby, and my mom came with her. I was very glad to see my mom, as she works all the time. So they ended up hanging out with us today, and my sister even cooked dinner. Yummy. Raven adores my mom, it's so crazy. After dinner they helped me and hubby clean up the living room, as Raven has a new habit of shoving things under the sofa and chairs, and we even found stuff under the cushions of the couch. I was so angry, because I really don't want to get bugs and mice. I think we already have mice in our walls. So I try so hard to keep things clean. Having a 1 year old come behind you and redestroy everything does very little for my cleaning process, so this will obviously become a daily chore.

Hubby made the best chocolate cake I've tasted in a long time, and even though I wanted to help and he wouldn't let me, I loved every bite. He swears he can't cook, since he's the one that's been doing all the cooking pretty much this entire pregnancy. He's been so awesome. He didn't cook anything before I got pregnant. I did all the cooking, but he's such a fast learner, and most of the things he cooks he just decided to "wing it". It came out perfect. Sometimes, I get so frustrated with him, because he doesn't give his self enough credit. Pretty much everything he cooks turns out amazingly tasty.

Lately, we've been having a problem with keeping Raven asleep during the night, so when it gets to be 8-9 at night, we both are so beat and tired. Lucky for me hubby is so awesome, he stays with Raven at night so when she wakes up he puts her back to sleep, so that I can sleep. I know he's so tired, he gets headaches, but it won't be long now...I won't need to rely on him so much to do things with Raven. I'll be able to help out more.

Now, it's the end of the day. Raven has had her bath and is asleep. We both are relaxing at the moment, and it won't be long before we are off to sleep. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow afternoon, so that's something that we are both preparing for, as I don't recall us having ever really been ready for anything as much as we are ready for me to have this baby already. It's almost Christmas and we were hoping to have the baby already, but it doesn't look like it's going to happen. I do have to admit, I am so impatient that sometimes I just want to scream with frustration from the doctors constantly sending me to labor and delivery for no reason. It turns out it was a complete waste of time, and then there's the fun fact that every time I go there .. that's when three or four women have their babies and the doctor says "sorry no baby today" and sends me home.

But you know what they say...amazing things come to those who wait..ugh..Too bad they didn't give a time limit to this waiting thing. That is one thing I've never been good at..waiting...

Today's thoughts

I decided to post another post this morning, and as I do this, there is a black chicken walking in our front yard. He makes me wanna laugh so badly, cause when it was warmer outside, all the guys from our neighborhood would go out and chase him. If I remember it right, hubby even went out and fed him. We thought it was so funny that this chicken walks around our yard.

It's warmer than it's been the last few days, but it's raining, so I guess that makes up for it. I had to sleep on the couch last night, because the pressure of the baby has been making it harder for me to sleep in the bed. I can't ever seem to get comfortable. I slept better on the couch, but I assume it's because I was so exhausted from not sleeping lately. Still, I feel a bit refreshed.

Last week when I went to the doctor, she said that every visit could be a decision to induce my labor. Still, I'm only 37 weeks and she said it's too early to just decide to do it. She would like me to go into labor on my own, but I'm not even contracting, even though most times it seriously feels like it. It's getting closer to Christmas, so I'm really hoping that it's this week or at least sometime next week that I have the baby. I'm getting really impatient. I can not wait for this to be over.

Silently, I'm laughing because hubby is trying to make breakfast, but Raven wants to be with him and she's getting in the way. He wants me to jail her in the living room, but what are you gonna do? She's a one year old that loves being with her father, and is curious about EVERYTHING! I've contented myself with listening to Christmas music while I write this post. Being pregnant though, I get so emotional, so I'm all mushy this morning. I really want to sit down and read my bible this morning, as I've not really been doing it lately. I really need that.

It's weird, cause even though I look out the window, I see it's cloudy and raining, but Its soothing. It doesn't bother me at all that it's nasty outside, probably because I'm not in it.

Well,

I'm going to end this for now.

A little bit of Raven Joy

This morning it's been busy on how we are going to get things done, but it's a good morning nonetheless. The living room is filled with the sounds of Dora the Explorer and Diego. Once again I find myself playing the 'Raven don't do that' game, but I don't mind. It's so crazy how much I love this little girl. This morning it was 'mommy, mommy, mommy' and even though she calls everyone mommy I can't help but smile. Then she goes and grabs her stuffed monkey and gives it a hug and says 'awwww'. I can say honestly that I love to watch her eat. Her tiny cheeks get all puffed out, and she chews her food. Now she can eat with a fork, but I still get nervous. I don't wabt her to poke her eye out or stab someone. I can't believe she'll be two soon, it's so heartbreaking. She's growing up so fast and she is so smart. I love being mommy.

Down for the Count

Couldnt help but post this. I dont know what happened. I guess Raven tired herself out cause when she laid in the floor I looked down and she was out. Lol, that gave me an idea to keep her going til she can't keep her eyes open.

Just thinking...

Well, today wasn't so horribly bad, as I actually had a chance to sit back and relax. Apparently, Raven isn't feeling well. She's been coughing. I'm hoping it passes soon, then found myself sniffling. Ugh. Well, being nine months pregnant, I really don't feel like catching a cold.

As usual Raven is active. I think I've said her name like a hundred times today. "Raven don't do this, Raven don't do that..please don't put that in your mouth Raven, Raven Raven Raven" and all the while she's saying "Mommy mommy mommy" haha. So I suppose we are even.

I was a bit frustrated because it's really cold, and with only one heater, I wasn't sure how we were going to heat the house, which is probably why Raven has a cold. Hubby still hasn't found a job, but today he went to talk to someone. I think he's found a cheap place to get oil for our heating. I hope so, cause everyone else wants 500-700 dollars. There's no way we'd be able to afford that. Especially with agencies telling us they don't help with deposits. I suppose I'm nesting, which is why I'm so frustrated. Sometimes I forget God is in control and that I don't have to worry, cause sometimes I worry alot.

I was really hoping to get some penpal letters in the mail today, something to keep me busy while Raven was busy wrecking the house. I've learned that it's actually less tiresome to keep going behind Raven picking things up if I just wait til she's down for her nap. Then when she wakes up we're back at it again. LOL. As I am writing this blog, she's actually sitting in her chair watching Barney. It's the same Barney movie over and over and over again. She would watch it all day every day if I didn't get so tired of watching it. She doesn't even move from that spot. I'm glad she likes Barney, though. He's so educational.

We have found ourselves playing a waiting game. Now that my stitches are out (I had to have my cervix stitched so that I could carry the baby) we are just waiting on the baby to arrive. I would really be glad when this is over already, as I am tired of the aches and pains that come with being nine months pregnant. We are so excited. I can't help but to go mess with all the baby stuff we have for him. I've packed a bag and everything, but it would be just my luck that I forget it. lol.

Hubby has gotten so good at cooking dinner. He swears he can't cook, but once it got harder for me to do things he stepped up and started cooking and I wanted to smack him. All this cooking and slaving over the stove..and he can cook!! I've gotten spoiled I think, and once I'm done being pregnant, I will have to get back into my routine of cooking and taking care of the house and the children. So I'm trying to not get too used to things.

I found that I'm not actually so upset about not having the internet soon, as I've been researching on how to do things from my phone. I was so happy when I found out that I could still blog from the browser on my phone, and will soon be testing it out to see if it really works. If it does it will be so awesome. I also saved some websites on the browswer favorites so I can continue to use them. Something else to distract me :).

Well, enough rambling. Just thought I'd write something new.

Jessie :)

A little about me :)

Well, this is just a little about me and who I am. First and formost, my name is Jessica Eason, but everyone calls me Jessie. I was born and raised in Delaware, where I met my hubby. We soon moved to Maryland where we had Raven Elizabeth, who is currently 1. We are expecting our second baby in a few weeks, if not sooner. It's a boy! Hubby is so happy about it. He's going to be named after hubby, but Imma call him Reesie.

Well, I'm 25 and hubby and I have been married for 3 years. It really doesn't seem like that long at all, but we are so made for each other its scary sometimes. Other than being with my family, I enjoy reading (when I actually get the time to do it), penpaling, emailing, texting, facebooking, taking pictures and videos, which I'm constantly posting to facebook. I enjoy nature, and I love animals. I dont' really have a favorite one, so I won't try to think of one to post, but I do love animals, and when I was a kid I wanted to be like Jane Goodall.

Well, we do go to church, and we are christians, not just religious. I may end up blogging some christians things here. I've never blogged before, though, so I am going to try it out :) I love the church that we go to and the people who go there, too. They are so good with Raven, and are looking forward to seeing the new baby. I love spring and fall, summer is too hot and winter is too cold, so I suppose it's like the three little bears. :)

Well, I think that's enough for the moment. Have a great week!

Jessie